In the back of my mind, if I thought about such things, I have thought, “God created me (in the past). And now that He has created me, I have existence (on my own, apart from God).” Yet any thoughtful believer in God knows it’s not quite as simple as this. If God really is God, then my existence depends on Him now, not just at the moment of my creation.
Lately, I’ve been noticing a series of passages in the Course that state this very thing. For instance, Lesson 165 speaks of the Thought of God and says, “It left you not, nor have you ever been apart from it an instant….By it you live” (W-pI.165.2:2, 4). Lesson 156 says, “You cannot walk the world apart from God, because you could not be [exist] without Him….Nothing can be apart from Him and live” (W-pI.156.2:4, 9).
I’ve been particularly struck by Lesson 165 (“Let not my mind deny the Thought of God”). It gives the impression that God’s Thought—God thinking about me—is my Source of life, which is constantly giving me not just being, but everything: protection, care, happiness, love, peace, joy, and rest.
And that makes a certain kind of sense to me. If God is thinking about me, and maintaining my existence thereby, surely He is not doing that in a halfhearted way. Surely the Thought He holds of me is the very best He has, filled with all His Love and care, as well as all His knowledge and power.
This has really left an impression on me lately. It means that the simple fact of my existence is the evidence that God is right here, thinking about me, and filling that Thought with everything He has. If I exist, then that must be happening. God must be actively maintaining me in His Thought, and with that Thought granting me all He has, all of His gifts, all of His attributes.
So what I have been thinking lately are thoughts like the following: If I exist, then God is shining on me. If I exist, then God is right here with me. If I exist, then God is paying full attention to me. If I exist, then God is loving me. If I exist, then God is thinking about me. If I exist, then God is maintaining my being in His Mind.
I have also had another thought. On the level of my essential being, I receive God’s Thought, with all that it contains, all of the Love, all of the shining. I can’t help but receive it. I receive it or I would not exist. So why not receive it consciously? Why not focus on letting it in right now?