I’m increasingly peaceful as I stay focused on the gift of Christ being everywhere in everyone, meaning our function is to indulge Love — increasing the Kingdom. After two months of not sleeping, the meds are now working for me, and I feel like I wake up each morning with God. But my reaction to so waking has been to immediately continue my river of tears over what looks likes suffering, often focused on an individual that I defend through trying to give up my judgment of them.
But this morning was different: I lingered with the notion of just being with Him for the enrichment of relationship. It felt like I had, at last, stepped out of a kind of rat race of desperation and joined the round-table of Saviors of the world; the table where I might learn the perfection of becoming truly helpful and harmless (to fulfill my part in God’s plan to wake us all).