“You cannot conceive of need so great”

I have been very quiet on the CCC front lately, because I’ve been so busy with my currently tumultuous life. I just got back recently from a seven-day holiday trip to visit my family, and then immediately went to work preparing for my move to Atlanta. I leave on Saturday. Here, I’d like to share the thoughts I’ve been having during this time — thoughts centered on the idea that both I and the world need what the Course has to offer in a huge way.

These thoughts have grown out of the big changes I see in my own life and in the world around me, all spurred by the current economic crisis. Of course, my own move has been driven by the Circle’s financial situation. I am now guided to uproot myself from the life I’ve known for the last ten years and embark on a whole new phase of my life in a whole new place. But I’m not alone. As I’ve talked to people about my own move, I’ve heard story after story about how the economic situation is making it necessary for others to make big changes in their lives as well, including moves. I have this sense that God is reshuffling the entire deck.

And the predictions regarding this particular economic downturn are becoming more and more dire. Just today, I read a column by Nobel Prize-winning economist Paul Krugman in which he says we could very easily be in for a second Great Depression. Just a few months ago, he was saying that we have a recession but won’t have a depression — now, however, he is far more pessimistic. On earthly terms, it looks like we are in for truly hard times that could last for a while.

That brings me to my thoughts about our need for the Course. My own life is going through so many changes that I have found it more important than ever to keep up my Course practice. It’s the “no atheists in foxholes” thing — the changes and uncertainties I’m looking at make me hold on to God tighter than ever before. I think that’s a good thing. It’s giving me an opportunity to see just how crucially important my spiritual path is to my life. It is truly my lifeline. I shudder to think of what it would be like to go through such a big change without it.

I’m also thinking about how much the world needs the Course in this crazy time. Of course, I’m not saying that everyone in the world needs to be a Course student. I simply mean that the Course is meant to be a “helper of the world,” as Jesus put it in guidance to Helen, and if ever there were a time when the world needed help, this is it. I feel more strongly than ever that those of us who are called to the Course’s path need to do everything we can to really take our course in working miracles, roll up our sleeves, and get to work helping all those brothers who need the miracles we can give.

My thoughts can be summed up in a line from the Course about how great a need there is for us to accept the holy instant together: “God’s Son has such great need of your willingness to strive for this that you cannot conceive of need so great” (T-15.VIII.2:5). Wow! I cannot even conceive of need so great. But while the full extent of that need may be beyond my grasp, as I go forward into this next stage of my life and see where the world seems to be headed, my awareness of that need is growing every day. Are we willing to do everything we can to meet it?