[Please note: ACIM passages quoted in this article reference the Foundation for Inner Peace (FIP) Edition.]
I’m back from the holidays. My practice just about completely fell apart. It was a time when my body gained weight, and I’m pretty sure my ego did, too. I’m glad to be back at my desk and taking part in the CCC. I’m also looking forward to taking part in our new Text and Workbook forum. I’m going through the Text again this year and so far loving it.
I did have one insight to share from my spiritually barren Christmastime. I was meditating one morning and two thoughts came together in my mind that had, at least to my memory, never met before. One thought was from a Workbook prayer, “You created me, and know me as I am” (W-pI.238.1:2). This, of course, makes perfect sense. If God created me, if He actually brought my nature into being and gave it all of its characteristics, then He knows exactly what I really am. I may be fooled about myself, but surely He can’t be. Who knows a creation—whether that creation be a computer, a painting, or a being—better than its own creator? As a result, how can I not accept that God is the One Who really knows me, better than anyone does, myself included?
The other thought was from the Text:
You cannot understand how much your Father loves you, for there is no parallel in your experience of the world to help you understand it. There is nothing on earth with which it can compare, and nothing you have ever felt apart from Him resembles it ever so faintly. (T-14.IV.8:4-5).
This is a stunning passage. True, the Course does try to give us earthly parallels for God’s Love for us. In The Gifts of God, Jesus says, “He loves you like a mother loves her child, her only one, the only love she has, extension of herself, as much a part of her as breath itself.” So there, the all-consuming love of a mother is given as an earthly parallel of God’s Love for us. Yet here in this Text passage, Jesus clarifies that this is not a real parallel, for in truth this mother’s love doesn’t even faintly resemble God’s Love for us (!).
That is hard to take in, so hard, in fact, that I find myself unconsciously adding in, “And He must be some sort of fool.” In other words, I assume that His Love (if it actually exists) is some sort of obsessive, fantasy-based thing that runs off its own fuel, being disconnected from a realistic appraisal of who I am. Surely He can’t love me like that and really know me. Come on!
But when that thought of “no parallel in your experience” met the other thought—“You created me, and know me as I am”—this notion of God’s Love being unrealistic and over-the-top was disallowed. Suddenly, “of course He knows me” was set right alongside “and there’s no earthly parallel for His Love for me.” It had quite an impact.
So I spent a couple of days focusing on this thought. “You created me and know me as I am. Yet I have no parallel for Your Love for me.” When I said it (which wasn’t very often—see first paragraph), it had quite an impact. It made me feel like God knows something that I don’t, like He holds this great secret about a topic of central importance to me—the topic of me.
I just wanted to relate this insight. It wasn’t the breakthrough it could have been. But I did want to get back to my blogging. I am getting back to more serious practice today. I have great hopes for my spiritual journey this year. And I look forward to taking that journey with all of you.