The power and the glory

[Please note: ACIM passages quoted in this article reference the Foundation for Inner Peace (FIP) Edition.]

Kathy and I have just had a most amazing healing experience, a “gloriously powerful” one, as she describes it. I am so exhilarated by it that I just have to share with you!

First of all, here’s some background information. Kathy has been working with me as healer to patient since the fall, when I fully accepted the fact that I had macular degeneration (a degenerative eye disease, which results in the loss of sight) and decided to attend to my healing. My guidance was continually telling me that I was healed and that all I had to do was accept my healing. I thought I was accepting it, so this guidance was puzzling to me. Nevertheless, I have been affirming that I am accepting my healing.

Here’s how our sessions would go: We would check in by phone, Kathy would offer a prayer, and we would go our “separate” ways. Kathy would sit quietly, receiving healing thoughts and images and sending me healing, and I would sit with my paper and pen waiting to receive healing words and write them down. When Kathy felt complete, she would call and we would share our experiences. She would tell me about the beautiful images she had received of me as healed and whole and any words that accompanied the images, and I would tell her that I had received nothing–or next to nothing. I often felt frustrated because she had received such beautiful images but I had received nothing. I even told her more than once that I felt that all her beautiful healed visions of me were for her, not for me, since I couldn’t relate to them and didn’t share them.

Then about a month ago I decided to do something different. Instead of sitting and waiting to receive guidance of my own, I would lie down in bed and be totally receptive to whatever healing was coming to me from Kathy. In our sessions following that decision, Kathy’s visions of me continued and I began to just accept them and trust that healing was happening on some level. Then came today’s experience!

As we began, I told Kathy that I didn’t have much to say, except that I was ready to just accept whatever healing was to come to me. I lay down and my mind wandered to thoughts about this and that, and then I stopped myself and said, “Kathy, I join my mind with yours in accepting my healing.” The next thing I remembered was the phone ringing. A half hour had passed and I had fallen totally asleep, unaware of anything!

Kathy said that she could have called me much earlier, but had had the strong sense that she was to let me rest, because I was resting in God, and needed to deepen the effects of the healing that had come to me through her. In fact, she felt that we both were meant to rest in the peace for a while and reap the benefits of being there together. She said that the session was “pervaded by a powerful, warm, and inviting sense of peace and contentment… a sense that where we think there is separateness, there is only one…. All are as one, formless, floating in the Mind of God–His Thoughts, His cherished creations.”

She had had, once again, a very powerful image of me, and then, in her words, “Your body, the representation of separation, dissolved and I see that you are the light. Then you radiate out and absorb me into you and I am also the light.” Then everyone else was absorbed into that light so that we all became the light. She heard,

This is the power and the glory in the Kingdom of God. Amen.

And then,

We are the power and the glory in the Kingdom.
Your healing has healed the world and the Son of God is where he always was.
And love shines throughout the Kingdom forever and forever. Amen.

As she related all this to me, I had a very different experience than before–I accepted it totally! I was filled with joy and enthusiasm at the “power and the glory” of the message that Kathy had received. I felt so honoured and blessed, and so thrilled to know that my healing was our healing!

As Kathy and I talked about the experience, I mentioned that everything seemed to have changed when I decided to stop trying to “get” something myself and just be open to receiving what she was receiving for me. I had honestly thought that the way healing was going to come was through Kathy receiving guidance for me and through my receiving guidance as I sat there pen in hand. It hadn’t occurred to me to not do anything but be open to receiving and accepting healing through her. I was sure I needed to be an active part of it somehow, and then I would feel puzzled, frustrated, and often angry when nothing came to me. Today, as Kathy remarked, I had realized that “I need do nothing”! I saw that I had actually been blocking the healing that was coming to me by insisting on doing something myself, and then being upset when Kathy received something and I didn’t! I had been trying to “interfere with God’s plan,” to “add something” to it (T-18.IV.5:11-12)–which was really just a defense against it–when all I had to do was “offer it nothing more than simple willingness to make way for it” (5:6)! As Kathy said, I had finally accepted that I deserve healing, that it’s the truth about me.

I am still full of such exhilaration as I write this. This has been an amazing insight and experience for me. I know that I am healed–and it has nothing to do with whether or not the macular degeneration has been cured! I have written many words here, but none of them can accurately describe my experience or how I’m feeling. Suffice it to say that I am so totally filled with gratitude and joy that I do feel that I am absorbing everyone into the Love of God. Hmm. I guess it’s no coincidence that today’s lesson is “There is no love but God’s,” and the frequent reminder is:

I bless you, brother, with the Love of God, which I would share with you. For I would learn the glorious lesson that there is no love but God’s and yours and mine and everyone’s!

Kathy completed her full report to me of the experience with these words, which I borrow from her and make them mine, as well:

I am aware that it is next to impossible to convey the sense of the time we spent together. The experience was so gloriously powerful, but on the page it is just words. So I add a prayer to the words asking that Holy Spirit will guide the minds of the ones reading them and convey a sense of the awe that we felt in the experience together. Amen.