Does it ever happen that you read something familiar from the Course and you see something new in it and all of a sudden a light goes on? That’s how I felt a while ago when I read one of my absolute favourite Course passages, this one from T-28.VI:
God keeps His promises; His Son keeps his. In his creation did his Father say, “You are beloved of Me and I of you forever. Be you perfect as Myself, for you can never be apart from Me. His Son remembers not that he replied, “I will,” though in that promise he was born.”
I love this passage. I find it so powerful and beautiful, such a lovely idea. However, as I reread it and the following sentences this time, I saw something I had never noticed before: The paragraph ends with “And what he substitutes [the wish to be separate and apart] is not his will, who has made promise of himself to God.”
It was that last phrase, which I have not really paid any attention to in my previous readings and which gave me a light bulb moment: “ [he] who has made promise of himself to God.” I haven’t promised to do this or that; I have made promise of myself to God. I have promised to accept myself as He Created me, as perfect as Himself. I have given myself to Him. I have promised to be one with Him––not separate and apart. I have promised to be His.
I promised myself to God and then forgot that I made that promise. However, a promise is a promise and, as the passage says, God’s Son keeps his promises. Not only did I make that promise, but I also will keep it.
Realizing this has had a powerful impact on me. It has brought up a lot of emotion, probably because of how I think about making promises. I don’t make promises easily. I take them very seriously and don’t make them unless I am really sure that I will (or will try my very best) to keep them. “I’ll do…” seems very different to me than “I promise to….”
I feel as if I want to sit in and with that promise all day long. I want to remake that promise that I didn’t remember I had made. I want to say to God, “ I promise, dear God. I am so sorry that I forgot, but I do promise to remember.” Oh, my; this must be why my favourite all-time song is, “Try to Remember” from The Fantasticks. (I even wrote a blog about it on July 20, 2011.) My promise to God is what I want to try to remember. Now I really do have to sit with this!