Today’s Lesson, 134, is “Let me perceive forgiveness as it is.” As we know, this lesson informs us that when we judge others as guilty, there is an honest impartial part of our minds that notes if that act of another’s deserves judgment, we ourselves have also fallen into a similar category, and are always in danger of transgressing somehow, and the guilt we imagine for our brother bounces back to us, adding to our leaking cache of repressed unworthiness. The Lesson asks, regarding this judgment of another: “Would I accuse myself of doing this?” It means, do I really want to set this process of self condemnation in action?
With what I view as a guilt prone mind, I might well answer, “Yes, I would want to accuse myself of this,” (believing I have higher standards, and I would never do this).
A question John Perry asked in his lesson commentary speaks especially powerfully to my resistant mind:
“The Course student who thinks that he would condemn himself if he committed certain crimes, is probably missing the author’s point: with your condemnation of anyone, you join your mind’s power to the mad idea of destruction as real, and thus condemn everyone, including yourself. Would you condemn everyone and yourself in order to punish yourself or one other?”
I find for my mind, that thought is a clincher. Now realizing more fully what my judgment inflicts, I notice I am more motivated to be vigilant, and nip this guilt-making process in the bud. I want to stand with the rest of us, as much I can possibly remember, and be an answer for the world I am carelessly projecting.